Totally lost.....

Tomorrow is the last day for SUKMA tournament......i'm really disappointed with my performance in this tournament.... Therefore i will re-considering wheather myself is still suitable become a referee or not. My performance in this national game is worst. I really suspen with my qualification as a Malaysia basketball referee.... Totally, LOST....i dont know what is the actual reason to make me lost confident when i jugde for the match. In this tournament, due to my worse performance , i only able to participating in judged 3 match.... Sometime i really feel unfair for the arrangement of referee duty. Some C grade referee who is able / has potential to upgrade, the cheif referee arrange many game to them, but how abt us who had perform not so good at the beginning? v r totally no chance to prove our ability and performance anymore. Is it fair??? It is a questionable.......However, due to my worse performance in this tournament, i know that i will not able up to another grade in this tournament, and i will take a serious thinking toward whether i still 1 being a referee anot.....Maybe i will without myself after this tournament. I also dunno....

Stressful..........

Feel stressful ...............really really feel stress....My assignment submission date and f,exam at the corner now....But , i seem like doing nothing..I'm vry worry with my assignment........really worry with it due to the no enough time to complete...I alrd ask my group do and stay back 4 discussion. But they always reject due to some unnecessary personal reason, which i cant accepted.........Until now, till got 2 tough assignment havent complete halfway...the due date is on next next week, i scare that it cant be complete........Haiz, i really feel fedup with my assignment group...I cant do anything to change my group attitude, even i alrd talk something vry vry clear to them to let them know , v r really lack of time to complete n show my disappointed toward whole assignment progress...But , they seem like doing nothing after received my meaning....My brain is empty now, feel lost , cant share with everyone else...That y i wrote blog to show all my sound....Haiz, 1 month to go, i'm 20 yrs old.....even myelf is a undergraduate student, but sometime i feel that myself like learing nothing in college,...is it true? who can give me a reason ......I dont know what to do to get back my own direction n confident in doing anything.....Feel upset is not only because of college work , but also form frm many many element.......I dont know wat can do already, really dunno....

hopeless

What is life????Who can ans my question? Why this world fulfill with unfair...yyyyyyyyyyyyy????IS it all the things in the world consists of political element????(no matter is association, club, society and etc)...Is it??????Pls let me find the ans......
For ie: another basketball tournament is coming soon on DEC......
Y my state send a person who had been go for many type of national go 4 tis national game again??? is it fair for other maba referee, who had get the licence????is it????i dunno y? but, 4 my opinion is definitely no point to support this decision(send the same ppl as referee representation)....Is it other maba referee for the ns is not qualify to go? or due to other reason ????who can tell me? I not jealous with the ppl can go for sarawak to judge for the national game....But at least give other ppl a chance to go to.......Other ref also is qualify to go...not only he is the 1 can go for it......firther more, he had been go for so many national games b4.......for ns ref comissional ,pls la, think abt it....

nothing special

Today finish judged for the non chinese national game. Fortunately nothing unhappy is happening.Perak vs Kl is the team of competing...Is out of my expectation, because frm the begining, i told that is will be a hard game....but actually not.The reason is Perak team totally cannot perform well in the game. That y is change the outcome frm the hard game to a normal game.....At the 3rd period, kl team (14 jersey play was swing his elbow toward perak player) , thn i call an unsportmanlike foul to the kl player.After that i seperate both of them to avoid fighting to be happening.........Luckily, until the end, nothing was happen.i feel glad can complete the game as well as possible. And i face back kl team, i found back my confident. Remark to myself, no matter what type of game and what type of player play for the game, is doesnt matter. Most important things is enjoy the game and study the game..........All the BESt...I CAN DO IT.....

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Juz finished my duty as a referee. Today is the 2nd times of my national game. Team competing is PERAK VS ATM( army team). Perak team won the match. Luckily, today nothing gonna be happen.hahaha...fell happy. But i dun satisfy my performance, i had done a mistake. I suppose dun call the 24 second violation, but i called it....This is the mistake that i cant accepted.However ,the game is end, i will look forward to tomorrow game. Tomorrow games is PErak VS Kl, i think is muz be a hard game.......This is because both teams also has vry good players and skills.I muz concentrate for tomorrow game, i'm facing team kl again, i cant give a chance to the past tense happend anymore......ALL the BEST for tomorrow game. LOOK forWARD =]

My 1st national game is non chinese (MABA CUP) championship.........This championship already start at 16 oct.........Yesterday is my 2nd game which held on 2130 (PDRM vs KL)...This is a hard game which mean is a challenging game......I were the umpire 2 of this game.......But, i'm vry disappointed with my performance on yesterday night......i'm totally lost in that match....i don't know wat myself are doing on that respective game..........My judgement become woesr n worse , even worst.......I totally lose my confidence in that game......Alot of fouls which occur in front of me, and in my coverage area, i also didnt call it......My frenz said me didnt prepare well for going this championship...i'm vry agree with wat him say........I want improve, i 1 upgrade, so i want make a change......After the whole night for recall back the mistake that i had done in the match, i already noe wat suppose to do.....I will be back to the normal situation and level start frm today....i dont want be influence by everyone else anymore...I want become my own...I want walk out my own judge style...ALL THE BEST, i belive that i can DO IT.....

今天听说有一位和我同年龄的男生去世了（19岁），突然之间觉得生命十分常宝贵，极短暂的。他来自芙蓉，是一位篮球球员。我算是跟他见过几次面巴。。。虽然不是跟他很熟，或许酱说吧不是很认识他，可是当我得知他的离世时，也有一种心酸的感觉。听说他是的了骨痛日症导致脑部受感染而去世的，真的很惋惜。这件事情让我觉得生命是很宝贵的，希望我认识的所有人会好好珍惜生命。。。祝福他能早日安息，也希望他的家人早点走哀伤的心情。。。。。