Totally lost.....

Tomorrow is the last day for SUKMA tournament......i'm really disappointed with my performance in this tournament.... Therefore i will re-considering wheather myself is still suitable become a referee or not. My performance in this national game is worst. I really suspen with my qualification as a Malaysia basketball referee.... Totally, LOST....i dont know what is the actual reason to make me lost confident when i jugde for the match. In this tournament, due to my worse performance , i only able to participating in judged 3 match.... Sometime i really feel unfair for the arrangement of referee duty. Some C grade referee who is able / has potential to upgrade, the cheif referee arrange many game to them, but how abt us who had perform not so good at the beginning? v r totally no chance to prove our ability and performance anymore. Is it fair??? It is a questionable.......However, due to my worse performance in this tournament, i know that i will not able up to another grade in this tournament, and i will take a serious thinking toward whether i still 1 being a referee anot.....Maybe i will without myself after this tournament. I also dunno....